There's an old quote from Alice Wonderland, "I try to believe 6 impossible things before breakfast". Apparently my variation on that is, "rip my heart out 6 ways before coffee".

Apparently I'm a glutton for punishment. Not sure why I do these things to myself.

Wandering the streets in the rain this morning was an opportunity for self exploration, I have to change things, I just don't know where to begin.